The ember of human experience that destroys us slowly

How did we become this way? How did I turn out like this. What you want I can't give you and it's tearing me up inside. I can feel my body become soul-less and the emptiness hurts so bad that I'm paralyzed. I try to fill it with rage but it betrays me and I end up hating myself in the end. Anything in that void is better than burning of it when it's empty. Heartless bodies roam this world and I fall right in line. There's so much more you deserve and I'm too fucked up in the head to be a good one. But why can't you understand that? Twisted minds and wretched souls aren't meant to be loved.